GOODBY NEW ZEALAND
Five weeks wasn't nearly enough time. Despite that, the grandeur, beauty and serenity I have witnessed here feels like more than I deserve. I tell myself that that's just the kernel of self doubt that travels with me wherever I go. Even so, I'm going to keep working a bit harder everyday to kill the doubt, to deserve every moment of adventure I fall face first into.
I fear where I was five years ago, and I fear where I'll be five years from now. It's the existential fear of being aware of the movement of time that fuels my desire to be a witness to these timeless places. Who I was yesterday defines who I am today. I can only ever look backwards as I walk into the future. I'll only ever know who I was, not who I am. Yet, I'll always strive to know who I am. I think it's this endless struggle that allows who I was yesterday to become who I am today.
It's been an interesting experience to share some of this struggle with you during this trip. Sitting in the airport in Christchurch, it really felt like I should be flying home. I haven't seen a single face I've recognized in five weeks. But I'm not done yet. I'm not nearly lost enough. I'm not nearly tired enough. I'm nowhere near sore enough.
So I'm in Melbourne now. Getting lost in a sea of overwhelmingly new sights, sounds, smells, tastes, and sensations. I don't know how much I'll be posting on here now, but rest assured I'm going to keep listening and looking for those special sights and sounds.
Below is a collection of my personal favorite pictures and recordings from New Zealand, in no particular order. Happy holidays folks! Sending summer love to those up north.
